Wednesday, April 29, 2009
1:37am
1:37 Am.. that is my favorite time of day.. Its when I am most relaxed.. sleeping in my bed.. That is the exact time I said Yes i will marry you.. That is when my world is most at peace.. I love that time
Friday, April 24, 2009
10 Things I like about Me!!!!!
WHAT I LIKE ABOUT MEEE!!!!!!
1) Amazing Sister (I am good at being a sister.. I am good at being there and being a good listener.. but I will tell them in a heart beat when they are wrong)
2)Good Best Friend (I am good at this also.. I am there for them, do dumb things with them, spend time with them, listen to them and let them be themselves without judgement)
3) My eyes ( I love my blue eyes. They are very pretty and when you look at me you can always tell the truth by my eyes.. )
4) My Teeth ( I have a werid no strange fetish with teeth. Therefore I try my best to take great care of them.. The best that I can at least. I like them to be white, straight and all there..)
5) My skill at making people feel what I am feeling ( I like being able to communicate with others.. Let them feel what I feel. I love that I have that emotional side and that I can really put myself out there)
6) My Talking Skills ( I am a talker.. lol. I love to talk. I will talk as long as someone will listen.. lol)
7) My Marriage (I Love my Marraige.. I love that I can work with my husband, live with my husband and see him pretty much 24 hours a day and yet.. Never get tired of it..)
8) My Legs ( I love my pre Pregnancy legs.. NO FLUID retained legs...)
9) My Family life ( I am glad I didnt wait forever to be close to my family. I love them all. I have shared wonderful memories with each and every person in my family.. Its a great feeling)
10) THE ABILITY TO SPEAK MY MIND (I love that I have the ablity and the drive to say no.. To tell people and things to back off.. To be open and honest and not afarid to say what I feel. Even though I still take in consideration the other person.)
1) Amazing Sister (I am good at being a sister.. I am good at being there and being a good listener.. but I will tell them in a heart beat when they are wrong)
2)Good Best Friend (I am good at this also.. I am there for them, do dumb things with them, spend time with them, listen to them and let them be themselves without judgement)
3) My eyes ( I love my blue eyes. They are very pretty and when you look at me you can always tell the truth by my eyes.. )
4) My Teeth ( I have a werid no strange fetish with teeth. Therefore I try my best to take great care of them.. The best that I can at least. I like them to be white, straight and all there..)
5) My skill at making people feel what I am feeling ( I like being able to communicate with others.. Let them feel what I feel. I love that I have that emotional side and that I can really put myself out there)
6) My Talking Skills ( I am a talker.. lol. I love to talk. I will talk as long as someone will listen.. lol)
7) My Marriage (I Love my Marraige.. I love that I can work with my husband, live with my husband and see him pretty much 24 hours a day and yet.. Never get tired of it..)
8) My Legs ( I love my pre Pregnancy legs.. NO FLUID retained legs...)
9) My Family life ( I am glad I didnt wait forever to be close to my family. I love them all. I have shared wonderful memories with each and every person in my family.. Its a great feeling)
10) THE ABILITY TO SPEAK MY MIND (I love that I have the ablity and the drive to say no.. To tell people and things to back off.. To be open and honest and not afarid to say what I feel. Even though I still take in consideration the other person.)
My Husband the Great
Let me tell you ladies, my husband is amazing.
Although he drives me insane from time to time (typically 23 hours a day), he still amazes me.
I have been under Drs. orders to monitor my rest, feet time, food, bp, Driving and so forth so my husband is taking on all he can, but last night was to funny.
I do most of the house chorus and cook (on a typical daily basis) but the last few weeks and last night he has really stepped up to the plate.
If you know my husband, you know his cooking skills are bare minimum (you know mac and cheese, frozen pizza, hot dogs that minimum). Last night after a long day at work and my bp up and down, I decided I would call it an early night and prop myself up in the bed and make myself comfy for the night. When i got in the bed I wanted to change the sheets (I dontknow why but I did) So Eric got the sheets out of the closet and made the bed for me. Which was great ( I selpt like a million bucks). Then I didnt know what I wanted for supper, he heated himself some left overs but I didnt want them. So he baked me a potatoe (although in the microwave I was proud of him) He brought me all my pills (vitiamin, Iron, BP meds), made me a drink and brought me a napkin.
He turned the tv on and go the remote so I could flip channels. He then propped my feet up on my body pillow and then he got back to work on his lap top.
After about 30 minutes he came in to the room, got my plate, my glass and went to the Kitchen. He did the dishes and brought me a new glass of orange KOOL-AID.. (my favorite) and he visited with me a minute and headed back into the living room to answer more emails. (All while the dog laid at my feet because she is my shadow right now..
By 8:00pm he came in the room and checked on me, bringing his work with him, we laid there together and watched HELLS KITCHEN (he doesnt like the show but he knows that I do). He put the dog in the kennel, got my machine ready for me and I went to sleep.
He of course stayed up late with his work typing his buy out list (its no wonder he is so tired in the mornings)
I guess I dont tell him near enough how much the little things he does for me mean.
He has taken alot over the last few months. He has put up with me being whinny and emotional but never once has he made a fuss about it.
I love him..
He is my husband the Great
Although he drives me insane from time to time (typically 23 hours a day), he still amazes me.
I have been under Drs. orders to monitor my rest, feet time, food, bp, Driving and so forth so my husband is taking on all he can, but last night was to funny.
I do most of the house chorus and cook (on a typical daily basis) but the last few weeks and last night he has really stepped up to the plate.
If you know my husband, you know his cooking skills are bare minimum (you know mac and cheese, frozen pizza, hot dogs that minimum). Last night after a long day at work and my bp up and down, I decided I would call it an early night and prop myself up in the bed and make myself comfy for the night. When i got in the bed I wanted to change the sheets (I dontknow why but I did) So Eric got the sheets out of the closet and made the bed for me. Which was great ( I selpt like a million bucks). Then I didnt know what I wanted for supper, he heated himself some left overs but I didnt want them. So he baked me a potatoe (although in the microwave I was proud of him) He brought me all my pills (vitiamin, Iron, BP meds), made me a drink and brought me a napkin.
He turned the tv on and go the remote so I could flip channels. He then propped my feet up on my body pillow and then he got back to work on his lap top.
After about 30 minutes he came in to the room, got my plate, my glass and went to the Kitchen. He did the dishes and brought me a new glass of orange KOOL-AID.. (my favorite) and he visited with me a minute and headed back into the living room to answer more emails. (All while the dog laid at my feet because she is my shadow right now..
By 8:00pm he came in the room and checked on me, bringing his work with him, we laid there together and watched HELLS KITCHEN (he doesnt like the show but he knows that I do). He put the dog in the kennel, got my machine ready for me and I went to sleep.
He of course stayed up late with his work typing his buy out list (its no wonder he is so tired in the mornings)
I guess I dont tell him near enough how much the little things he does for me mean.
He has taken alot over the last few months. He has put up with me being whinny and emotional but never once has he made a fuss about it.
I love him..
He is my husband the Great
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Dreams coming true!!!
Its funny how sometimes a simple word or a simple scent or a look can send us back to think about our past...
I can remember making so many mistakes and not being a better person. I thrive myself now a days to be a better friend, family member, sister, granddaughter, cousin, wife and many other thinsgs, but its funny how those things didnt matter much to me a few years ago.
My life was def. a party life less than 5 years ago.
I had my own place and my own path I was making (although secretly I wanted a family, a husband and much more than a party pad).
My typical weekends started on Thrusday night and lasted through Saturday. It was either drinking at my apartment or drinking with friends. I cant remember not having at least 3-10 people over every weekend. It was a party pad, it was a place to escape and a place to hide from reality and growing up.
I mad the worse descisions of my life and had some very hard realities to face in this place. From a drunken womans nightmare, to heartache, to friendships loss and to be used in every since of the word.
Had it not been for my best pulling me from my dark days and making me get away from those using me, I would not be where I am today..
About 3 years ago, my best friend asked me to live with her. I was not sure if this was for me becuase I like to party and act a fool. She on the other hand was married and took life like a married woman, but after a near break in, I decided that moving out of my place would be the best for me.
Suddenly those around me who were really "NOT" my friends stopped coming around. My life started to level out and instead of thinknig about partying I was enjoying flea marketing, talking, sleep overs, and family time. Suddenly my views and my values changed.
I remember finaly wanting a to be happy, wanting to fall in love and wanting to do better for myself...
I had a true friend who stood beside me through the hardest transitions in my life. because of her I fell in love (not lust true emotional, uncensored, crazy love)... She taught me it was okay and she made me realize my feelings for Eric although I attempted to hide them and lie about them.
She was my partner in crime (we spent to much money, stalked our men, stayed up way to late, ate tons of pizza, and made mistakes, but she never left myside)
Now we are both married and both living a grown up life.
But I imagine had she not slapped me around a few years ago and made me see my mistakes I would still be single, still partying, still making mistakes and way worse off.
So I guess basically I am thanking her for being her. For pullng me through the hard times and for allowing me to ride her coat tails when I thought I coudl not go any further.
Its funny how sometimes a simple word or a simple scent or a look can send us back to think about our past...
I can remember making so many mistakes and not being a better person. I thrive myself now a days to be a better friend, family member, sister, granddaughter, cousin, wife and many other thinsgs, but its funny how those things didnt matter much to me a few years ago.
My life was def. a party life less than 5 years ago.
I had my own place and my own path I was making (although secretly I wanted a family, a husband and much more than a party pad).
My typical weekends started on Thrusday night and lasted through Saturday. It was either drinking at my apartment or drinking with friends. I cant remember not having at least 3-10 people over every weekend. It was a party pad, it was a place to escape and a place to hide from reality and growing up.
I mad the worse descisions of my life and had some very hard realities to face in this place. From a drunken womans nightmare, to heartache, to friendships loss and to be used in every since of the word.
Had it not been for my best pulling me from my dark days and making me get away from those using me, I would not be where I am today..
About 3 years ago, my best friend asked me to live with her. I was not sure if this was for me becuase I like to party and act a fool. She on the other hand was married and took life like a married woman, but after a near break in, I decided that moving out of my place would be the best for me.
Suddenly those around me who were really "NOT" my friends stopped coming around. My life started to level out and instead of thinknig about partying I was enjoying flea marketing, talking, sleep overs, and family time. Suddenly my views and my values changed.
I remember finaly wanting a to be happy, wanting to fall in love and wanting to do better for myself...
I had a true friend who stood beside me through the hardest transitions in my life. because of her I fell in love (not lust true emotional, uncensored, crazy love)... She taught me it was okay and she made me realize my feelings for Eric although I attempted to hide them and lie about them.
She was my partner in crime (we spent to much money, stalked our men, stayed up way to late, ate tons of pizza, and made mistakes, but she never left myside)
Now we are both married and both living a grown up life.
But I imagine had she not slapped me around a few years ago and made me see my mistakes I would still be single, still partying, still making mistakes and way worse off.
So I guess basically I am thanking her for being her. For pullng me through the hard times and for allowing me to ride her coat tails when I thought I coudl not go any further.
2019--Ten Years in the Future-- 2009 Ten years in the past
If I could spring foward ten years and write an letter to myself from the year 2019, to explain to myself what the next ten years would be like from April 23,2009 until April 23, 2019, heres how I imagine it would read!!
Heather,
CONGRATS, on your 35th birthday (you thought you were old when you wrote this), your 11th anniversary (and yes you are still married to Eric), Kohen will be 6 this year and my how can it be that Abby is already almost 9 years old.
Life has changed alot over the last ten years for you.
You finally got all you wanted out of life, a wonderful family, children and a wonderful husband. You accomplished being a great mom, although you struggle from time to time and worry that your messing up some how. Your a great wife and strive daily to be better... You lost the weight you dreamed about (thats right skinny minnie). Finally you bought the house you always wanted.
Eric is now General Manager of Supreme Fixture Company (Dallas Branch) and Mike Schultz is the General Manager of Little Rock Branch. However thanks to your recent stroke of luck, you finally get to be the stay at home mom you always dreamed about (with your small buisness on the side you are able to balance business woman, mom, friend, sister and Wife).
Dakota is almost 13 years old now, your Nephew is almost 9 years old and Ryan (29 now by the way) finally got it. She finally settled down, got her life together and figured out Motherhood for herself. She is excelling in the medical field and making your all so proud.
Destiny and Jason just celebrated thier 14th wedding anniversary and have a beautiful 5 Year old son. Destiny continues to be a RN and takes wonderful care of those around her. Jason of course is working himself to death but loves his job and loves the new found responsiblity of being a dad.
Your father now almost 59 years old is doing well. He spends his time with his grand children and with his girls. He finally got his knee replaced and his health is looking up (thanks to the fact he put down the smokes).
Dont worry about your friends most of them finally figured life out like you. Karen finally went back to school and realized her dreams of being a mom, a teacher and a wonderful wife. She just needed a good push in the right directions.
Jessica has been married almost 10 years now. (Thats right We finally broke the cycle of divorce in our family)...
There has been down sides the last 10 years, you lost several family members, friends and thier loss took a toll on you for awhile. However we got you back.
Its hard to imagine this letter came from the future but it did. Your faith in God and strength in Family had pulled you through many many tradgies, holidays, birthdays, family functions, births and life itself.
Keep your head up stay strong through the rough patches, love God, Love your famly, Love your Freinds and have faith through it all..
See you in the mirror in 2019
Heather,
CONGRATS, on your 35th birthday (you thought you were old when you wrote this), your 11th anniversary (and yes you are still married to Eric), Kohen will be 6 this year and my how can it be that Abby is already almost 9 years old.
Life has changed alot over the last ten years for you.
You finally got all you wanted out of life, a wonderful family, children and a wonderful husband. You accomplished being a great mom, although you struggle from time to time and worry that your messing up some how. Your a great wife and strive daily to be better... You lost the weight you dreamed about (thats right skinny minnie). Finally you bought the house you always wanted.
Eric is now General Manager of Supreme Fixture Company (Dallas Branch) and Mike Schultz is the General Manager of Little Rock Branch. However thanks to your recent stroke of luck, you finally get to be the stay at home mom you always dreamed about (with your small buisness on the side you are able to balance business woman, mom, friend, sister and Wife).
Dakota is almost 13 years old now, your Nephew is almost 9 years old and Ryan (29 now by the way) finally got it. She finally settled down, got her life together and figured out Motherhood for herself. She is excelling in the medical field and making your all so proud.
Destiny and Jason just celebrated thier 14th wedding anniversary and have a beautiful 5 Year old son. Destiny continues to be a RN and takes wonderful care of those around her. Jason of course is working himself to death but loves his job and loves the new found responsiblity of being a dad.
Your father now almost 59 years old is doing well. He spends his time with his grand children and with his girls. He finally got his knee replaced and his health is looking up (thanks to the fact he put down the smokes).
Dont worry about your friends most of them finally figured life out like you. Karen finally went back to school and realized her dreams of being a mom, a teacher and a wonderful wife. She just needed a good push in the right directions.
Jessica has been married almost 10 years now. (Thats right We finally broke the cycle of divorce in our family)...
There has been down sides the last 10 years, you lost several family members, friends and thier loss took a toll on you for awhile. However we got you back.
Its hard to imagine this letter came from the future but it did. Your faith in God and strength in Family had pulled you through many many tradgies, holidays, birthdays, family functions, births and life itself.
Keep your head up stay strong through the rough patches, love God, Love your famly, Love your Freinds and have faith through it all..
See you in the mirror in 2019
Friday, April 17, 2009
WHO AM I????
Describe someone you work with, without using their name or their gender!!!!
Easy Description # 1
Married 2xs
2 Step Kids
1 Child
2 Sisters (one passed from Cancer)
1 Brother
Mother is still alive
Father passed from Cancer
Tomboyish
Lanky
Tall
Short Tempered
Immature
STUCK
Promiscuous although married
Snobby
Fake
WHO AM I???????????
Hard Description # 2
3 kids (2 girls, 1 boy)
Married first love
Mother/Father Alive
Proud Parent
20 years of employment
Brand new vehicle in last year
Tall
Slender
Casual Dresser
Coffee Drinker
Paper Reader
Quick witted
Quiet/talkative (one you know them)
Who AM I ?????????
Easy Description # 1
Married 2xs
2 Step Kids
1 Child
2 Sisters (one passed from Cancer)
1 Brother
Mother is still alive
Father passed from Cancer
Tomboyish
Lanky
Tall
Short Tempered
Immature
STUCK
Promiscuous although married
Snobby
Fake
WHO AM I???????????
Hard Description # 2
3 kids (2 girls, 1 boy)
Married first love
Mother/Father Alive
Proud Parent
20 years of employment
Brand new vehicle in last year
Tall
Slender
Casual Dresser
Coffee Drinker
Paper Reader
Quick witted
Quiet/talkative (one you know them)
Who AM I ?????????
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
ODWA--- If I had one Super Power what would it be?
If I could have once super power what would it be..
I would like the power to stop disasters/violence from happening.
I would just sense the danger or the unexpected act and be able to stop it by a simple act of willing it..
That would be a great power.
No more world disasters or no more crimes.. PERFECT..
I love this super power...
I would like the power to stop disasters/violence from happening.
I would just sense the danger or the unexpected act and be able to stop it by a simple act of willing it..
That would be a great power.
No more world disasters or no more crimes.. PERFECT..
I love this super power...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Waiting on the big day...
As the big day approaches every ache, pain and new thing worries me.. From less movement to extreme cramps.. I worry that something is wrong.. I think this is super normal for new parents and for expecting parents..
I worry i wont know I am actually in labor (it has happened, I have read the books), I worry about getting to the hospital especially in rush hour traffic, I worry that my dog wont adjust well to a new baby (in her eyes thing in her way). I worry about being a mom and a family and making ends meet.. The usual stuff I am sure..
I look at the calendar on a daily basis and become concerned and nervous.. Especially when something changes throughout the day.. But then I hold strong to God and realize that my strength will come from with in from him an dthat I will be okay because I WILL my self and pray myself that way..
Its funny that what seemed like it would never get here has gotten here so quick.. It wont be to much longer and I will be wondering where the time went because she will be attending her first day of Kindergarten. STRANGE HUH....
Just thought I should put my feelings down.....
I worry i wont know I am actually in labor (it has happened, I have read the books), I worry about getting to the hospital especially in rush hour traffic, I worry that my dog wont adjust well to a new baby (in her eyes thing in her way). I worry about being a mom and a family and making ends meet.. The usual stuff I am sure..
I look at the calendar on a daily basis and become concerned and nervous.. Especially when something changes throughout the day.. But then I hold strong to God and realize that my strength will come from with in from him an dthat I will be okay because I WILL my self and pray myself that way..
Its funny that what seemed like it would never get here has gotten here so quick.. It wont be to much longer and I will be wondering where the time went because she will be attending her first day of Kindergarten. STRANGE HUH....
Just thought I should put my feelings down.....
10 Things I need and 10 Things I want
Needs:
1) I need to find a house instead of a 3rd floor apartment
2) I need more money
3) I need to go grocery shopping for real (not just the hear and there kind)
4) I need to be debt free
5) I need to put my taxes in the mail (51.00 to state)
6) I need a little me time (just me time)
7) I need to pack a bag for the hospital
8) I need to pack Erics bag for the hospital
9) I need to finish everything that is on my list of things to do
10) I need to prepare for alot of sleepless nights
Wants:
1) I want June to be here
2) I want a nice house
3) I want a new Car with no payment
4) I want my savings to grow
5) I want to pay off my debt
6) I want to go on a vacation ( a mini vacay to S. Padre Island)
7) I want to spend some time at home with my family (by time i mean a week or two not mini weekend)
8) I WANT TO GRASP REALITY
9) I want to go back to school and go to culinary school
10) I watn to be as happy as i am today forever
1) I need to find a house instead of a 3rd floor apartment
2) I need more money
3) I need to go grocery shopping for real (not just the hear and there kind)
4) I need to be debt free
5) I need to put my taxes in the mail (51.00 to state)
6) I need a little me time (just me time)
7) I need to pack a bag for the hospital
8) I need to pack Erics bag for the hospital
9) I need to finish everything that is on my list of things to do
10) I need to prepare for alot of sleepless nights
Wants:
1) I want June to be here
2) I want a nice house
3) I want a new Car with no payment
4) I want my savings to grow
5) I want to pay off my debt
6) I want to go on a vacation ( a mini vacay to S. Padre Island)
7) I want to spend some time at home with my family (by time i mean a week or two not mini weekend)
8) I WANT TO GRASP REALITY
9) I want to go back to school and go to culinary school
10) I watn to be as happy as i am today forever
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
TOP 20 ANNOYANCE'S
My ODWA FOR TODAY....
1.) THE TOILET SEAT-- When you are 8 months pregnant and stumble to the bathroom in the middle of the night.. You dont want to fall in.. but you more than likely will on more than one occassion and this makes for a bad morning topic at 5:30am. PUT THE SEAT DOWN....
2.) Spam mail!!! I do not nor ever will need vigra, dish network, walmart free gift cards, junk emails and crap things that I cant even spell sent to me 1,000 times a day.. Really get a life spammers...
3.) UN-FIT PARENTS (child molesters, abusers, giver ups or plain dumb)!!!! Look having a child is blessing and there are a ton of people who are unable to have children that would love the opputurnity, yet you take it for granted and dont care about your kids.. REALLY.. You should be ashamed of your self
4.) DALLAS TRAFFIC (enough said)
5.) EXPRESS CHECK OUT LANES!!! Look its either 10 or 20 items or less.. If you have a cart full pick another line..
6.) SMACKERS.... those who chew with thier mouths open "smack, smack, smack up side the head!!"
7.) Our Justice System (WERE TO SOFT).... Eye for an Eye thats what i think.. If you moleste or beat and murder a small child or anyone for that matter.. I think you sould be placed in prison with a molesters that are already there and they should moleste you and then you shoudl be killed. There would be alot less crime and children and people being hurt by this world if we still followed the old testments punishments.. If you steal.. Cut both hands off.. Sounds good to me..
8.) OCTO MOM!!! Sorry but this lady gets under my skin, she did what she did for fame and money.. and we are giving into her.. HER OWN REALITY SHOW REALLY... COME ON...
9.) Love shows that feature FAMOUS PEOPLE (turn to VH1) you will understand.. Like if i am goign to go on to find love and I was famous.. It would not be on a telvision show for the world to see me fail.... (MORE THAN ONCE BRET MICHAELS)
10.) Now it alls!!!! YOU DONT KNOW IT ALL.. Trust me..
11.) Screaming Children and the parents who let them scream in public..... If your child is having a fit.. Take them outside.. Others would liek to finish their meal in peace...
12.) Coworkers (Who know it all about your job) If you can do my job so well.. DO IT.. I would iek to see it...
13.) Impatient drivers!! You know when your going 75 in a 70 and they come weaving in and out of traffic at 85-90 miles an hour to cut you off.. HELLO... really
14.) SPECIAL REPORTS THAT INTERUPT MY SHOW
15.) When your pregnant and people touch your belly and you dont even know them.. Or when they stopyou and say.. oh wow you must be due anytime.. NO JUST FAT..
16.) CELL PHONES!!!! If you have a phone ANSWER IT.. (especially if you just called me..)
17.) Children that were born in 1990-1992 (Their gerneration is doomed)
18.) Telemarketers.. (Dont want it, dont call me)
19.) The guy in my office (IF YOU CANT DO YOUR JOB.. STOP.. LET SOMEONE ELSE BECUASE YOU KEEP MESSING IT UP WORSE)
20.....) The annoying beep the alarm makes at 5:30 in the morning.. GRRRRRRR
1.) THE TOILET SEAT-- When you are 8 months pregnant and stumble to the bathroom in the middle of the night.. You dont want to fall in.. but you more than likely will on more than one occassion and this makes for a bad morning topic at 5:30am. PUT THE SEAT DOWN....
2.) Spam mail!!! I do not nor ever will need vigra, dish network, walmart free gift cards, junk emails and crap things that I cant even spell sent to me 1,000 times a day.. Really get a life spammers...
3.) UN-FIT PARENTS (child molesters, abusers, giver ups or plain dumb)!!!! Look having a child is blessing and there are a ton of people who are unable to have children that would love the opputurnity, yet you take it for granted and dont care about your kids.. REALLY.. You should be ashamed of your self
4.) DALLAS TRAFFIC (enough said)
5.) EXPRESS CHECK OUT LANES!!! Look its either 10 or 20 items or less.. If you have a cart full pick another line..
6.) SMACKERS.... those who chew with thier mouths open "smack, smack, smack up side the head!!"
7.) Our Justice System (WERE TO SOFT).... Eye for an Eye thats what i think.. If you moleste or beat and murder a small child or anyone for that matter.. I think you sould be placed in prison with a molesters that are already there and they should moleste you and then you shoudl be killed. There would be alot less crime and children and people being hurt by this world if we still followed the old testments punishments.. If you steal.. Cut both hands off.. Sounds good to me..
8.) OCTO MOM!!! Sorry but this lady gets under my skin, she did what she did for fame and money.. and we are giving into her.. HER OWN REALITY SHOW REALLY... COME ON...
9.) Love shows that feature FAMOUS PEOPLE (turn to VH1) you will understand.. Like if i am goign to go on to find love and I was famous.. It would not be on a telvision show for the world to see me fail.... (MORE THAN ONCE BRET MICHAELS)
10.) Now it alls!!!! YOU DONT KNOW IT ALL.. Trust me..
11.) Screaming Children and the parents who let them scream in public..... If your child is having a fit.. Take them outside.. Others would liek to finish their meal in peace...
12.) Coworkers (Who know it all about your job) If you can do my job so well.. DO IT.. I would iek to see it...
13.) Impatient drivers!! You know when your going 75 in a 70 and they come weaving in and out of traffic at 85-90 miles an hour to cut you off.. HELLO... really
14.) SPECIAL REPORTS THAT INTERUPT MY SHOW
15.) When your pregnant and people touch your belly and you dont even know them.. Or when they stopyou and say.. oh wow you must be due anytime.. NO JUST FAT..
16.) CELL PHONES!!!! If you have a phone ANSWER IT.. (especially if you just called me..)
17.) Children that were born in 1990-1992 (Their gerneration is doomed)
18.) Telemarketers.. (Dont want it, dont call me)
19.) The guy in my office (IF YOU CANT DO YOUR JOB.. STOP.. LET SOMEONE ELSE BECUASE YOU KEEP MESSING IT UP WORSE)
20.....) The annoying beep the alarm makes at 5:30 in the morning.. GRRRRRRR
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
WHATS MY AGE AGAIN???
"No one should take themselves so seriously (with me, please stay)With many years ahead to fall in line (with me, please stay)Why would you wish that on me? (with me)I never want to act my age (please stay)What's my age again? (with)What's my age again? (me)What's my age agaaaaaaaaain?" ---Blink 182
My real age is 25 (almost 26). Although I don't feel old in society I am nearing the danger zone 30.. And well bring it on.. I still am young enough to go out with friends, play babies, play barbies, play house and have imagainary tea parties with my neice.. I still crawl on the floor with her and I still sneak up on tiny imagainary animals to capture them for our farm (Mine and Kotas game) but yet I am old enough to drive, drink and pay bills.. So what age does that make me...
It makes me what ever age I want to act... A number is a number... Just because I am 25 doesnt mean that I cant pretend anymore or that I shouldnt blow bubbles in my milk. It just means.. that I have real responisblity and that I have to take care of myself by paying bills, working and surving in this crazy world... .
So like Blink 182 says.. "No one should take themselves so seriously..."
Act your age when you must.. Other wise cut loose...
Whats my age again????
My real age is 25 (almost 26). Although I don't feel old in society I am nearing the danger zone 30.. And well bring it on.. I still am young enough to go out with friends, play babies, play barbies, play house and have imagainary tea parties with my neice.. I still crawl on the floor with her and I still sneak up on tiny imagainary animals to capture them for our farm (Mine and Kotas game) but yet I am old enough to drive, drink and pay bills.. So what age does that make me...
It makes me what ever age I want to act... A number is a number... Just because I am 25 doesnt mean that I cant pretend anymore or that I shouldnt blow bubbles in my milk. It just means.. that I have real responisblity and that I have to take care of myself by paying bills, working and surving in this crazy world... .
So like Blink 182 says.. "No one should take themselves so seriously..."
Act your age when you must.. Other wise cut loose...
Whats my age again????
Monday, April 6, 2009
Memories that made my Relationship
December 2004 (thats a long time ago)
I had been at my job for about 9 months when a new guys started... He was thin, short, blonde and full of himself, oh and he was engaged. He annoyed me with his some what arrogant ways and his "better than the next way to..." I chose to stay clear of this fellow....
March 2005
I like this guy hes awesome but why is he friends with the arrogant guy.. Gosh
Hanging out the arrogant guy attitdude slipped away (vanished if you will) and a nice but cocky guy showed up.. He was actually a decent friend.. and he was my mans best friend..
May 2005
Accidents can change your life (you dont even have to be in them)
I lost him, I burried him, I stood tall and I moved along It was hard but I had to do it... I was no longer friends with the arrogant guy... No reason to be.. I lost my way after that May. I lost who I was. I chose a different path... Almost a year and half would pass...
August 2006
Its amazing like accidents how a phone call can change your world...
RING RING... "Hello", "heather", "Yes", "Josh is dead", "ERIC THAT IS NOT FUNNY" CLICK, silence....
RING RING... "Its not funny Eric Its not",... Heather pauses "Josh S. Died tonight" Eric screams.. Silence....
September-October 2006.
After we buried Josh in August everything began to change. I started running with a younger crowd due to my second job.. and started to act out in ways that were just not me... I started hanging out with a new girl (we will call her R). One night I got a call from Eric and he wanted to escape reality (which he was doing every thursday-Sunday) so R and I went and picked him up. R had a huge crush on Eric and well that was cool with me.. I could have cared way less than most.. lol.. We all hung out together...
December 2006
FA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!!!!!!!! Holiday season.. Coworker Christmas party... The drinks they were flowing, the music was playing and well Hormones where high.... Eric and I were a bit tipsy, to say the least and for some strange reason that night WE KISSED.. Okay okay.. We totally made out.. This would be the start of what is...
By Christmas I was so infacturated with him.. I was so school girl crushing.. Although he pretty much made it clear he didnt want to be with me "WINK WINK" Every weekend you could find us together.. at least one or both nights... but that was that.. Phone conversations and well you get the picture...
My best friend Karen, she knew I was falling for him.. She knew I was liking him...
April 2007
Again a Phone call can change everything..
6:00AM
"Hello" tiredly i answered the phone.... "I am on my way"...
Eric and I returned to the house to rest a bit by around 11:00am we were up and at em. I was driving him here and there, when i realized I had to pay my insurance.. So i drove to my dads house.. I introduced my dad and him and that was that. I took him to his friends house.. NO ANSWER...
So i drove to my moms... INSTANT CONNECTION.. my mom, step dad and Eric were best of friends... INSTANTLY.
We went and got my bestfriend.. and spent the night all hanging out down at moms...
May1-May 31, 2007
Chicago-------------------inserperaable on weekends, We spent so much time being together.. (I was totally falling for him.. Totally loosing myself.....) Did he feel the same way???
BAM... More news... Pregnant..... (How do I tell him)
The next few months our RELATIONSHIP was very complicated... Very stressfull and very dificult...
July 2007....
He wants to be there.. He wants to be part of this and this world.. WONDERFUL....
September 2007....
BIG MONTH.. WE GOT OUR OWN PLACE..
ACKWARD.. TO SAY THE LEAST.....
I never thought about waking up everyday in the same house with him.. right next to him.. It was a learning experience...
September to Early October 2007
Loss........ HURT.... SADNESS AND PAIN....
October 2007 (12th)
"Marry Me" .... Wedding bells....
How can this be? I never thought in a life time he woudl want to marry me.. EXCITED..
October-April 2008
PLANNING OUR WEDDING..
WEDDIG BLISS... Starting our life together.... Wonderful...
April-August 2008
Settling in to our new relationship our Marriage.. (Life is Good)
September 2008
THE BIG MOVE TO DALLAS..
Leaving our family.. but in the end strengthing our family unit.
October 2008
"POSITIVE" "PREGNANT" "PARENTS"
The test says yes...
The doctor confirmed.. We are going to be parents..
October-April 2009
Waiting on our bundle of joy to arrive...
Its amazing that over just a few years how people and relationships change.. My time line can show you that.. and trust me.. I left a ton of what happened out...
I had been at my job for about 9 months when a new guys started... He was thin, short, blonde and full of himself, oh and he was engaged. He annoyed me with his some what arrogant ways and his "better than the next way to..." I chose to stay clear of this fellow....
March 2005
I like this guy hes awesome but why is he friends with the arrogant guy.. Gosh
Hanging out the arrogant guy attitdude slipped away (vanished if you will) and a nice but cocky guy showed up.. He was actually a decent friend.. and he was my mans best friend..
May 2005
Accidents can change your life (you dont even have to be in them)
I lost him, I burried him, I stood tall and I moved along It was hard but I had to do it... I was no longer friends with the arrogant guy... No reason to be.. I lost my way after that May. I lost who I was. I chose a different path... Almost a year and half would pass...
August 2006
Its amazing like accidents how a phone call can change your world...
RING RING... "Hello", "heather", "Yes", "Josh is dead", "ERIC THAT IS NOT FUNNY" CLICK, silence....
RING RING... "Its not funny Eric Its not",... Heather pauses "Josh S. Died tonight" Eric screams.. Silence....
September-October 2006.
After we buried Josh in August everything began to change. I started running with a younger crowd due to my second job.. and started to act out in ways that were just not me... I started hanging out with a new girl (we will call her R). One night I got a call from Eric and he wanted to escape reality (which he was doing every thursday-Sunday) so R and I went and picked him up. R had a huge crush on Eric and well that was cool with me.. I could have cared way less than most.. lol.. We all hung out together...
December 2006
FA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!!!!!!!! Holiday season.. Coworker Christmas party... The drinks they were flowing, the music was playing and well Hormones where high.... Eric and I were a bit tipsy, to say the least and for some strange reason that night WE KISSED.. Okay okay.. We totally made out.. This would be the start of what is...
By Christmas I was so infacturated with him.. I was so school girl crushing.. Although he pretty much made it clear he didnt want to be with me "WINK WINK" Every weekend you could find us together.. at least one or both nights... but that was that.. Phone conversations and well you get the picture...
My best friend Karen, she knew I was falling for him.. She knew I was liking him...
April 2007
Again a Phone call can change everything..
6:00AM
"Hello" tiredly i answered the phone.... "I am on my way"...
Eric and I returned to the house to rest a bit by around 11:00am we were up and at em. I was driving him here and there, when i realized I had to pay my insurance.. So i drove to my dads house.. I introduced my dad and him and that was that. I took him to his friends house.. NO ANSWER...
So i drove to my moms... INSTANT CONNECTION.. my mom, step dad and Eric were best of friends... INSTANTLY.
We went and got my bestfriend.. and spent the night all hanging out down at moms...
May1-May 31, 2007
Chicago-------------------inserperaable on weekends, We spent so much time being together.. (I was totally falling for him.. Totally loosing myself.....) Did he feel the same way???
BAM... More news... Pregnant..... (How do I tell him)
The next few months our RELATIONSHIP was very complicated... Very stressfull and very dificult...
July 2007....
He wants to be there.. He wants to be part of this and this world.. WONDERFUL....
September 2007....
BIG MONTH.. WE GOT OUR OWN PLACE..
ACKWARD.. TO SAY THE LEAST.....
I never thought about waking up everyday in the same house with him.. right next to him.. It was a learning experience...
September to Early October 2007
Loss........ HURT.... SADNESS AND PAIN....
October 2007 (12th)
"Marry Me" .... Wedding bells....
How can this be? I never thought in a life time he woudl want to marry me.. EXCITED..
October-April 2008
PLANNING OUR WEDDING..
WEDDIG BLISS... Starting our life together.... Wonderful...
April-August 2008
Settling in to our new relationship our Marriage.. (Life is Good)
September 2008
THE BIG MOVE TO DALLAS..
Leaving our family.. but in the end strengthing our family unit.
October 2008
"POSITIVE" "PREGNANT" "PARENTS"
The test says yes...
The doctor confirmed.. We are going to be parents..
October-April 2009
Waiting on our bundle of joy to arrive...
Its amazing that over just a few years how people and relationships change.. My time line can show you that.. and trust me.. I left a ton of what happened out...
What's Ur Favorite Childhood Book??
What is your favorite childhood book????
THERES A MONSTER AT THE END OF THIS BOOK... .(By Grover on Sesame Street)
This book was my favorite growing up.. I use to lay around my granny and pops house in the spare bedroom that over looked the pool and read this book over and over and over....
I always thought that the ending would change and that there would really be a monster at the end of the book.. BUT IT NEVER DID...
See grover tied the pages together, built a brick wall up, nailed the pages shut... just to keep me from turning the page and getting closer to the monster.. BUT my curoisty always left me reading to the end...
Best part of the book was getting to the end and finding that Grover was the monster at the end of the book.. There fore it was not as scary as Grover made it out to be...
I loved this book and I recommend it to anybody who has kids...
Friday, April 3, 2009
ODWA'S: Going back in time to yester years. If i Could Choose one day from my childhood what day would it be....
This is a pondering question?
If I could go back in time and choose one day and one day only from my childhood what day would it be and what age would I be?????
This actually was a very easy question for me.
October 12, 1987....
Two days prior to this my parents divorce was final (October 10) then two days (October 12, 1987) later it would be my 4th birthday!!!!!
People say you dont remember things from your childhood but you do...
I think this was the exact da/moment my mother became my mother (the woman who gave birth to me) but not my mom or mommy (years and I do mean Years later that would change but at that time it was the truth)...
My mother did not call that day. She did not come by... I was a sad "birthday girl" that day. I cried myslef to sleep that night... and if you ask my dad he will tell you the phone finally rang at around 3-4am (October 13, 1987) but by this time I had fallen asleep because I cried myself that way. My dad did answer the phoen that night and my mother was on the other end of the line, but he simply told her I was asleep and it was to late to be calling. My own mother had forgotten my birthday and in her drunken slumber remembered it... (HURTFUL HUH)....
From that day forwarded I think it made me a much stronger better person. Don't you.
Now years later... I am much better.. My moms and my reationship is mended.. and though the memories of the past still sneak up on me.. It is what it is.. The past and we all must learn how to live through it...
I have...
If I could go back in time and choose one day and one day only from my childhood what day would it be and what age would I be?????
This actually was a very easy question for me.
October 12, 1987....
Two days prior to this my parents divorce was final (October 10) then two days (October 12, 1987) later it would be my 4th birthday!!!!!
People say you dont remember things from your childhood but you do...
I think this was the exact da/moment my mother became my mother (the woman who gave birth to me) but not my mom or mommy (years and I do mean Years later that would change but at that time it was the truth)...
My mother did not call that day. She did not come by... I was a sad "birthday girl" that day. I cried myslef to sleep that night... and if you ask my dad he will tell you the phone finally rang at around 3-4am (October 13, 1987) but by this time I had fallen asleep because I cried myself that way. My dad did answer the phoen that night and my mother was on the other end of the line, but he simply told her I was asleep and it was to late to be calling. My own mother had forgotten my birthday and in her drunken slumber remembered it... (HURTFUL HUH)....
From that day forwarded I think it made me a much stronger better person. Don't you.
Now years later... I am much better.. My moms and my reationship is mended.. and though the memories of the past still sneak up on me.. It is what it is.. The past and we all must learn how to live through it...
I have...
25 Things: Last Weeks Writing Assignments
25 Things I want to do... Need To do....
1. Have a successful Marriage that last
2. Have a family (2 children)
3. Love myself for who I am
4. Go to Culinary School (for fun)
5. Remember to tell everyone I love them on a daily basis
6. Be a stronger better person
7. Find a great church group
8. Buy a house
9. To not be scared of who I am but embrace all that I am
10. Remember that someone every day thinks about me and smile because of it....
11. Thank God Everyday for what he has given to me and blessed me with...
12. LET GO OF THE PAST (focus on the present)
13. Buy a BRAND NEW CAR (for myself... Because I have never owned one)
14. Study the Bible, do memory verses and learn/know how great God really is....
15. Tell my husband everyday what he means to me.. and How he make me feel....
16. Learn to love my job and do great at it...
17. Make friends in Texas (this is really hard for me because of my Arkansas Roots and True Friends)
18. Learn to let go a bit, be more relaxed and less stressed from time to time...
19. Do something Daring.... Like Jump out of a Plane...
20. TRAVEL
21. Establish Family traditions for my children (hot chocolate and story on christmas, A christmas tree ordiment each year, read a story every night, bake cakes on thier birthdays. Things like that)
22. Have true alone time and meaniful conversations with God... Other than my prayers at night.
23. Admire the world around me.. (Stop and take a moment to see beauty in everything)
24. Eat Better
25. Realize life is not forever and that loosing love ones is hard but part of it (This is very hard for me.. because I think my family and friends should live for ever.. I need to grasp reality and learn how to emotionally live with it)
1. Have a successful Marriage that last
2. Have a family (2 children)
3. Love myself for who I am
4. Go to Culinary School (for fun)
5. Remember to tell everyone I love them on a daily basis
6. Be a stronger better person
7. Find a great church group
8. Buy a house
9. To not be scared of who I am but embrace all that I am
10. Remember that someone every day thinks about me and smile because of it....
11. Thank God Everyday for what he has given to me and blessed me with...
12. LET GO OF THE PAST (focus on the present)
13. Buy a BRAND NEW CAR (for myself... Because I have never owned one)
14. Study the Bible, do memory verses and learn/know how great God really is....
15. Tell my husband everyday what he means to me.. and How he make me feel....
16. Learn to love my job and do great at it...
17. Make friends in Texas (this is really hard for me because of my Arkansas Roots and True Friends)
18. Learn to let go a bit, be more relaxed and less stressed from time to time...
19. Do something Daring.... Like Jump out of a Plane...
20. TRAVEL
21. Establish Family traditions for my children (hot chocolate and story on christmas, A christmas tree ordiment each year, read a story every night, bake cakes on thier birthdays. Things like that)
22. Have true alone time and meaniful conversations with God... Other than my prayers at night.
23. Admire the world around me.. (Stop and take a moment to see beauty in everything)
24. Eat Better
25. Realize life is not forever and that loosing love ones is hard but part of it (This is very hard for me.. because I think my family and friends should live for ever.. I need to grasp reality and learn how to emotionally live with it)
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Let the Countdown Begin
Abigail Christian Aileen Brown is due June 15 (Which is like 10 weeks and 3 days away.. Scary Huh)... I have been preparing my self for this day for sometime now.. and I am getting very excited to have her here....She has been my prayer for a very long long time... I am a bit overwhelmed, over anxious and orgainzed for most expecting mothers.
Thanks to a fellow blogger I met a wonderful person named Anita and she will be designing our Birth Annoucements for Abigail, which helps me so much because I was so unsure of what I was going to do about this.. Because I wanted to make sure that they were designed and ready to be mailed out a few weeks after Abby arrives home and my husband sure wouldnt have a clue where to start on getting announcements together... Anita is a blessing because she is able to incorporate the colors of Abby's room (so the annoucement does not have to be PINK, becuase my Husband is not a fan of pink) she can design them to fit what we like (which is great for a nervous, organized, overwhelmed mother to be like me) and she seems to really care about what it is we want.. Which excites me.
So now I have a few things left to do.. LIKE get the new diaper bag because my dog tore up the one I purchased and Loved. (at it was already packed for the hospital... go figure) I have to pack my bags for the hospital, get the swing picked up, and pretty much relax... Minus a few other things..
Soon it will be so different around our house.. and Really I cant wait...
Thanks to a fellow blogger I met a wonderful person named Anita and she will be designing our Birth Annoucements for Abigail, which helps me so much because I was so unsure of what I was going to do about this.. Because I wanted to make sure that they were designed and ready to be mailed out a few weeks after Abby arrives home and my husband sure wouldnt have a clue where to start on getting announcements together... Anita is a blessing because she is able to incorporate the colors of Abby's room (so the annoucement does not have to be PINK, becuase my Husband is not a fan of pink) she can design them to fit what we like (which is great for a nervous, organized, overwhelmed mother to be like me) and she seems to really care about what it is we want.. Which excites me.
So now I have a few things left to do.. LIKE get the new diaper bag because my dog tore up the one I purchased and Loved. (at it was already packed for the hospital... go figure) I have to pack my bags for the hospital, get the swing picked up, and pretty much relax... Minus a few other things..
Soon it will be so different around our house.. and Really I cant wait...
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
This does not sound like me
Personality Test - Report
Neuroticism
73
Extraversion
76
Openness to Experience
24
Agreeableness
69
Conscientiousness
46You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You are an active group participant but usually prefer to let someone else be the group leader. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank and sincere. People find it relatively easy to relate to you, however you will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans.
This report compares you to other women between the ages of 21 and 40 in United States.
Neuroticism
Overall Score
73
Anxiety
85
Anger
77
Depression
26
Self-Consciousness
57
Immoderation
24
Vulnerability
99You feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. You feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind. You are not generally self conscious about yourself. You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.
Extraversion
Overall Score
76
Friendliness
59
Gregariousness
68
Assertiveness
57
Activity Level
74
Excitement-Seeking
62
Cheerfulness
89You generally make friends easily enough although you mostly don't go out of your way to demonstrate positive feelings toward others. You find the company of others pleasantly stimulating and rewarding, and you enjoy the excitement that crowds provide. You are an active group participant but usually prefer to let someone else be the group leader. You lead a fast-paced and busy life. You move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously and are involved in many activities. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy.
Openness to Experience
Overall Score
24
Imagination
64
Artistic Interests
71
Emotionality
32
Adventurousness
3
Intellect
19
Liberalism
29You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition.
Agreeableness
Overall Score
69
Trust
76
Morality
83
Altruism
39
Cooperation
54
Modesty
40
Sympathy
79You naturally assume that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. You see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank and sincere. People find it relatively easy to relate to you. You will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity.
Conscientiousness
Overall Score
46
Self-Efficacy
35
Orderliness
82
Dutifulness
72
Achievement-Striving
37
Self-Discipline
23
Cautiousness
26You are moderately confident that you can achieve the goals you set yourself. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans. You have a strong sense of duty and obligation, and feel a moral obligation to do the right thing. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done. You find yourself procrastinating and show poor follow-through on tasks. Often you fail to complete tasks - even tasks that you want very much to complete. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives
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