Dreams coming true!!!

Its funny how sometimes a simple word or a simple scent or a look can send us back to think about our past...

I can remember making so many mistakes and not being a better person. I thrive myself now a days to be a better friend, family member, sister, granddaughter, cousin, wife and many other thinsgs, but its funny how those things didnt matter much to me a few years ago.

My life was def. a party life less than 5 years ago.

I had my own place and my own path I was making (although secretly I wanted a family, a husband and much more than a party pad).

My typical weekends started on Thrusday night and lasted through Saturday. It was either drinking at my apartment or drinking with friends. I cant remember not having at least 3-10 people over every weekend. It was a party pad, it was a place to escape and a place to hide from reality and growing up.

I mad the worse descisions of my life and had some very hard realities to face in this place. From a drunken womans nightmare, to heartache, to friendships loss and to be used in every since of the word.

Had it not been for my best pulling me from my dark days and making me get away from those using me, I would not be where I am today..

About 3 years ago, my best friend asked me to live with her. I was not sure if this was for me becuase I like to party and act a fool. She on the other hand was married and took life like a married woman, but after a near break in, I decided that moving out of my place would be the best for me.

Suddenly those around me who were really "NOT" my friends stopped coming around. My life started to level out and instead of thinknig about partying I was enjoying flea marketing, talking, sleep overs, and family time. Suddenly my views and my values changed.

I remember finaly wanting a to be happy, wanting to fall in love and wanting to do better for myself...

I had a true friend who stood beside me through the hardest transitions in my life. because of her I fell in love (not lust true emotional, uncensored, crazy love)... She taught me it was okay and she made me realize my feelings for Eric although I attempted to hide them and lie about them.

She was my partner in crime (we spent to much money, stalked our men, stayed up way to late, ate tons of pizza, and made mistakes, but she never left myside)

Now we are both married and both living a grown up life.

But I imagine had she not slapped me around a few years ago and made me see my mistakes I would still be single, still partying, still making mistakes and way worse off.

So I guess basically I am thanking her for being her. For pullng me through the hard times and for allowing me to ride her coat tails when I thought I coudl not go any further.